An ode to Miss Suzanna

A little ditty in honour of my Mistress.....:)

Here i write about my favourite person,
Who, if She left my life, it would worsen.
A cruel, sadistic, tornentative Miss,
Devotion to Her is truly bliss.

One brief meeting in Manchester one day
Was all that it took for me to think “OK”
slave flash you need to get this deal booked,
From that day forward, i am truly hooked.

A journey was planned to earn a collar,
The tapestry of my life She will encolour.
i’m now totally addicted to Miss Suzanna
A talented Domina who plays the piana😁

Latex, denim, leather or lace,
Miss always has style, elegance and grace,
A regal Domina with class to spare,
Drives my desire to worship and care.

Long blonde hair and blood red lips
Legs of perfection and real nice….boobs😊
With a body to die for and a brain to suit
Beautiful face which makes the boys toot.

With a sadistic nature and razor sharp tongue,
Any slave cockiness doesn’t last long,
Beauty and brain’s She uses all day
Submission and servitude the only way.

With a love of torment, denial and tease,
Effortlessly making me eager to please,
Distance control or with Her in person,
Her knowledge and imagination, a bottomless caisson.

When there in person, She is at Her peak
By contrast to Miss, my resistance is weak
All sessions with Her are a true delight
my desire to submit, i just cannot fight.

With the ability to be cruel, harsh and kind,
She effortlessly twists the meek male mind
Normally hard but sometimes mild,
The beating of males, drives Her wild.

The use of the cane, the whip, or crop
Keeps me in check & Miss Suzanna on top,
With beatings inevitable to keep Her happy,
i take it for Her, so She is not crappy.

Hits to the balls and hits to the bum
Hits to the cock for an early cum,
Strikes with the crop and blows with the cane
There is no-one better at inflicting some pain.

Torture of balls, nipples and cock,
Edged to frustration, no watching the clock
Using Her knees, heels or kicks
It’s a joy to crumple at Her feet in bits.

Slapping, spitting, pegging, using a needle
Chastity, control, made to feel feeble,
No choice in my torment, its totally Her call
i have no fears here, She excels at them all.

As much as i adore always thinking of You,
i'm sure You have something kinky to do,
With that note i too must dash
Warmest regards, from Your slave flash.

Session 9 review

So it's session 10 with Miss Suzanna tomorrow....ive been 8 days in chasity and 8 days without release...thats 190 hours or 2.18% of 2018 (i wonder what %age of the year i have been in chastity in total...??).

Anyway i plan a blog about the moving and differing mindsets when in chasity - now its just an ache - like they are bruised - and im very aware, like they are swollen......im also very horny and frustrated, and i still have one more no cum worship to do tonight!

So, my first ever review of a session is up on Miss' website, and now here for you to read. Hopefully i'll do a review of each session going forward on this marvellous journey....enjoy:

i nervously waited in my car for my Mistress to summons me to this double session with Her and Her gorgeous blonde friend Miss Marks. What was instore for me, remained a mystery

Miss Suzanna Maxwell opened the entrance door shortly after i had knocked. As i entered i could not fail to see and admire Her in Her lovely black lingerie - heels, stockings suspenders, kickers and bra  - She knows lingerie is a big weakness of mine.

Miss lead the way up the stairs, giving me an enchanting view of Her perfect ass inches from my face as i followed Her in a trance up the stairs to my date with destiny.

Once in the dungeon, Miss Marks joined us, also in black lingerie - Miss Marks going for multi-strap suspenders to keep Her stockings up and a basque on top. i was in double blonde and black heaven.

After the brief formalities, Miss Suzanna told me they were leaving and i was to strip and await their return. i did this and assumed the greeting position that is required.

Not long passed before i heard the delightful sound of heels and the door opening. Miss Suzanna's perfect feet appeared in front of me and i greeted Her with kisses to each foot, before Miss Marks presented Her beautiful feet for the same worship.

"up on your feet arms out" Miss commanded. As i presented my wrists, the two Ladies cuffed me and clipped me to the suspension unit above. i was now naked, hung and at their mercy.

Miss Suzanna left the room and swiftly returned with a glass tumbler, at the same time as She began playing with my flaccid penis, She informed me i was going to cum in the cup and then drink it.

Now i had been in chastity for 9 days, and the thought of me swallowing my own heavy, 9 day old load resonated. However, with Miss's relentless action and the visions of blonde and black loveliness filling my eyes my thoughts drifted as my milking continued.

There was no choice for me here, i was going to be forced to cum then i was going to have to eat it. As Miss's rhythmic handiwork brought me inevitably closer i asked for permission to cum. It was the fastest i had ever been granted, Miss was clearly keen to see my humiliation!

As i started to ejaculate, Miss cruelly stopped Her wanking of me, ruining my orgasm to boot.....agony, but my pitiful thoughts on this lasted only as long as it took Miss hand returned to my cock to ensure She had fully emptied me.

She quickly presented the cum filled glass opened my mouth and poured that 9 days worth of cum into me-  "swallow it" She barked. Miss Marks's equally as skilled hand returned to my cock and She began some sensitive post orgasm wanking - for a second i thought i was to be forced to cum again, as i know that is in Miss' arsenal.  Thankfully Miss left my cock alone as both Mistress broke down into giggles and laughter at my humiliating start to the session, and clear grimace on my face.

Miss defined my harsh and ruined milking as pleasure: therefore following pleasure must come pain.

Still helplessly strung up, both Mistresses then began to flog me, taking in turns to create the sound on my back they so love. i can’t remember how many lashes i took before they switched implements to the crop, then finally to a whip. Miss pushed me yet again in Her whipping of me which i took for Her.

Following this, Miss turned Her attentions to my balls. She is a deadly accurate ball buster, and instructing me to turn round so i could not see Her coming and spread my legs. Her first kicks connected with my testicles from behind me and the pain shot into my stomach - cruelly made worst by me not being able to cradle them following the kick....!

Miss Marks was invited to kick me which She did with accuracy too then both of these stunning Women took turns to smash by poor, empty balls in a barrage of kicks. With my arms aloft i could not defend my assets from the exquisite pain even if i wanted too.

With my balls tenderised and both Mistresses happy i was let down and i was allowed to kiss the feet that had just hurt me, before i was cocooned in the inflatable slug!

This was another first for me and delivered so well by my Mistress. As the air filled the bag, i simply could not move. The rubber was all encapsulating, and with only small little holes to breath through i could not see a thing. Of course i was aware of the two blonde Mistresses that we’re circling me, but i couldn’t anticipate their next move, but simply lie there and accept my fate.

It was difficult to tell what was happening....i “think” my cock was exposed some how and that it was  toyed with, i was certainly aware of my Mistress’s face sitting - Her beautiful arse on my face, restricting the small amount of air i could breath, but not see Her was amazing.....and i was aware one of my tormentors sat on my waist....im not sure which one but they were tantalisingly close to me as i was all restricted.

Upon release from my cocoon, I was strapped to the bondage wheel...what a sight to see Miss Suzanna and Miss Marks in black lingerie strapping me in - my already weakened state was now fully exposed as i tried to take in as much of this visual treat as humanly possible....man it was heaven. Both Mistresses taunted me verbally, in sexy low tones before my Mistress exited the room leaving Miss Marks to continue my torment.

After a short time, my Mistress returned with a naked male slave collared, on a leash and on hes knees…i was resigned to my fate.

As Miss Marks provided some seductive words of encouragement, i could hear Miss Maxwell giving Her instructions and expectations to the slave – one of which was to swallow my load.

After giving Her final words, Miss lead the slave to my cock, and instructed him not to disappoint, whilst both Mistresses stepped back a little and watched as i endured this most humiliating act, solely in order to please Miss Suzanna.

Despite he’s best efforts the slave failed to get me hard…probable due to having the milking i received earlier coupled with the humiliation. Miss Suzanna, not renown for Her patience, released my right hand and instructed me to wank into the slaves open mouth. i commenced, at first choosing to continue to admire the view of these two Mistresses in front of me. As i became aroused i closed my eyes to focus my deviant thoughts and too deliver for my Mistress. Sinking into an immersive world i was soon releasing my second load of the afternoon into the mouth of the willing slave infront of me.

With the slave out of the way, the Mistresses released me for the final act of kissing Their shoes to end the session. This was my first forced bi experience, i did it only for my Mistress and in Her expert hands, maybe i will do it again in future. Maybe i was a little broken after it,  but as all the best people do, my Mistress has fixed me and I cannot wait to serve Her again in person  soon.

Regards

slave flash

edging

Miss Suzanna introduced me to the concept, the pain the pleasure of edging, that there is no doubt.

i had heard the term before, didnt know alot about it and certainly never experienced it, but it's just one of the items She has given me to which i am truly thankful.

On our very first session - before my total devotion and owned route - Miss ended the session by telling me She was going to edge me....i cannot recall the number but i'd guess it was 13 times...;) and it would have almost certainly ended ruined.

Miss is excellent at this, and just as it relies on me begging just at the right time for full effect, it also relies on Miss stopping or inflicting pain at the right time too.......and She excels at this...in fact i think W/we have only got it wrong one to date ...of course it was my fault and ending with several punches to the balls mid orgasm....that was painful i can tell you and it was caught on camera..;) - it has also given me an idea for a more extreme version of it....maybe that for another time..;)

Yes it would be easy for me to beg early and before the edge, but whats the point? i beg when i am at the edge, and it is that pain/pleasure moment. Its genuine and my fate is literally in the hand of my Mistress, to whom i trust totally.

Being repeatedly edged is painful obviously. It drains you, weakens you and commits you to a state of submissiveness rarely experienced. If you are totally restrained then that is another level and privilege again.

In O/our situation Miss controls me and takes control totally away from me. Its Her hand and my cock. i am truly honoured that it is this way round. If i were to edge myself, i would feel more in control, when Miss has my dicklet in Her hand then there is even less doubt who is in control. Even as i am begging and trying to hit the number i am given, it is Mistress's call if She wants to make me fail by ignoring me. That's Her prerogative.

one more sleep....

One more sleep until my frustrated and horny cock is out of its virtual chastity. For how long, and for what use i do not know, but one thing is for sure, Miss Suzanna will want me knelt naked infront of Her when i greet Her tomorrow.

i have no thoughts on what is in store for me tomorrow, i just know it will be pain for me and pleasure for Her, and my cock and balls will suffer their fair amount!

So, its 9 days since my last release.....well two releases actually as there were two on the same day. 1 was a forced and very ruined orgasm at the skill hands of Miss Suzanna the second, a few hours later was another forced orgasm, but this time She insisted i wanked myself in worship of Her stockings. Both times my disgusting mess was feed too me...yuk!

Since then i have been banned from touching. i have behaved, only touching my cock to pee, clean and shave, never so much a thought of touching in arousal.

It has been hard...Monday and today (Thursday) by far the hardest. i described Mondays pains in a previous blog, and today's are very similar, but today i have an almost irresistible urge to find a suitable image of Miss and totally misbehave.......but i will succeed and remain in my virtual chastity, or chastity of trust with no touching until i see my Mistress tomorrow.

The last 9 days have been difficult, but what it has done is ensure i think, dream and fantasise about my Mistress, which of course keeps me horny, submissive and subservient which of course is what She wants. She wants me to have Her always in my mind.....and She absolutely is.

This is also fraught with danger as the male mind is a little stupid not least when it's horny. So i have actively resisted needless random contact with Her, in order that i do not out stay my welcome and end up out of favour again.

So tomorrow is so finally nearly here, i just hope i perform as expected and do my Mistress proud...give Her some fun and laughter, amusement and pleasure at my predicaments and pain.

i may even consider are review of the session.....but of course only if Miss Suzanna Maxwell permits such scripture from me...xx

How the mind works on the ban....

So this is my 5th day of my no touching ban and 6th day since I was allowed relief (ruined of course)......This puts pressure in all sorts of places.

Clearly, the most obvious place for pressure is as a result of the inevitable fluid build up, creating a noticeable swelling and pressure which drives a desire to release. Of course i am not only banned from release, but even a little playtime too.

The second place is in the mind. Any little downtime or gap in thinking about every day stuff is quickly filled with thoughts of my situation, my Mistress, the forthcoming session or indeed all three.

This thinking and fantasing not only adds more pressure to go for relief but also creates a desire to write things down - plans, fantasies, wishes etc. Of course bothering Mistress with unwanted and excessive communications as She goes about Her day is not a good plan. i actively speak when spoken to in this at the moment!! So, this blog format gives me that outlet and an opportunity to note my thinking as each day ticks over.

i have an appointent with Mistress on Friday - i genuinely do not know what is in store for me, as She  plans and delivers the sessions how She sees fit in order for my progression towards ownership. i do know it will be all of painful, fun, sadistic, fair, safe, mind blowing and more, it always is. Will i be allowed to cum or even forced to cum is totally Her decision, as is what happens after if i do get a release.

So as Friday approaches these thoughts and questions will play over and over, mixed with wishful thinking and certain fantasies will simply put me into a vicious circle of frustration and pressure. To which i am determined to succeed and not touch at all...:)

10 day wank ban

Thats right, im currently 3 days into a 10 day wank ban imposed by my Mistress Suzanna Maxwell.

my crime i hear you ask, was to cum on an edging count of 2 and not 13 as i was commanded to during a filming day on Wednesday.

Miss was not happy at my premature failure and issued this ban after beating my cock and balls post orgasm....that hurt.

Her initial sentence was 31 days! but then She realised i would be worshipping Her in session 10 days later so reduced my sentence to 10 days

Mistress has had me in chastity for prolonged periods from January this year, but this is my first ban on touching. i am still to worship Her each morning and each evening but not touch myself....it is hell now and we're only a 3rd in...:(

When one of the other subs who we were filming with realised i could not cum for 10 days he asked how i did this, as 3 days for him - and lets face it most males - is too long.

We fundamentally i have no choice, as Miss has instructed it. She has made me go 13 days before now which i have succeeded in doing, difference was i was at least allowed to touch each evening....this is a total ban.

So, pretty much 72 hours after my last very ruined orgasm, presumably i have another 240 hours to go.......i say presumably because im not even sure if Miss will allow my release when worshipping Her...??
She generally takes delight in painfully and repeatedly edging me before ruining the orgasm in various ways and She has hinted at multiple forced milking sometime soon.

Mistress will decide the fate of my ban and release and i am more than happy with this as i work towards my collar and ownership......this is if i can keep my hands off my cock for another 7 days......

sorry about the lack of updates...i do need to try harder..;)

OK so i'm glad to know that Miss didnt keep me from orgasm from that day till this, in fact She allowed my release on day 13.

How She did it took me by complete surprise, and arguably provided me with my first public humiliation experience.

After treating Miss to a nice light lunch i was told i had to go to the toilet to release....and film it, so She could view it when i returned..as i walked to the toilet, hoping no-one else was in there i just felt small. i had to film it, i couldnt see my Mistress either in person or an image so i had to imagine, dream, reminisce....anything to drive that vision of beuaty that would drive my erection and ultimately release.....in a public toilet.

As i walked back from my deed feeling like the whole world knew what i had just done, Mistress simply asked for my phone so She could view it...........i felt small, humiliated, degraded but proud that i had done what my Mistress wanted, and pleased for Her that i excepted my training without expectation or question and with total trust She is my Mistress.

So, where am i with my training? Seven sessions in and i feel totally owned. i now just simply submit to Her. When i have the privileged of worshipping Miss in person, i know not of what i will be subjected to. Whats more, i dont care, im not worried about it as long i can worship Her, feel Her the pain She expertly deliveries and make Her happy then i am happy. i do know however that Miss's favourite is beating men for their pain and Her pleasure, so each session i fully expect (and have received) a harder beating than last time

Miss Suzanna can certainly deliver pain - Her whipping and caning skills are renown, and my levels are pathetically low.
Miss has taken up the challenge to train me, and each and every session i receive a beating - i mark easily which delights Her and i am always pushed to the edge of being broken, i force myself to take more and more for my Mistress.

Under Miss Suzanna's guidance, i have been subjected to many experiences - some new, some not, some off my fantasy list, some that push my limits - but all executed with skill, confidence, quality and class.

Long may this continue.

sf