so i have been sat here working away for Miss on various items all morning, chastised and forbidden to play as i watch clips and images, my erection swells and drops and the frustration is at a high right now!
its my own fault too...i have just watch a video of O/our last session, where Miss took me which ever way She wanted - on my knees, on my back, fast, slow, deep...even leaving the cock inside me for me to fuck myself as She watched and drugged me......any way thats for another time...right now my cock is rock hard and i am dying to worship Her..:)
So, in my predicament i need something to do with my hands an that is just note a few thought on how Miss controls me.
Firstly, obviously She renamed me, i am simply just called flash.
She keeps me chastised, allowing me a release only once per week following full worship of Her. This keeps me compliant, devoted and eager to remain so for Her.
Milking - again a regular milking, normally ruined in some way, keeps me in total submission and compliance as Her balls are drained and empty.
She regularly mounts me, removing any masculinity i think i may have. Sometimes this is as i am bent over a bench and secured with no where to go as She enters me. Other times it is on a bed on my back, my Mistress commanding eye contact as She penetrates me. The humiliation ensures devotion.
She drugs me, which usually sends me deeper into Her sub space ensuring my eyes water, lips tremble and i have no control over my mind or body....Hers to do as She pleases with them.
Intimidation - with Her eye contact - i cant cope with it, but She uses this so effectively to assert and maintain Her dominance over me.
Beatings - Miss beats me appropriately....it always hurts and i always try to take it for Her, with an aspiration to take more - i currently wear Her marks as a result of a recent caning.
Pain - Miss loves to dish out pain - Her cock and balls being favourite for torment at the moment.
Tease and torment - Miss conducts this perfectly, through voice, body and soul...when She chooses, i am putty in Her hands.
Humiliation - various methods used, from making me drink my own cum to forced bi to occasional public humiliation.
OK i need a cold shower, but they are just some of the techniques Miss Suzanna uses to control and own me.....which She does.
Friday 12 July 2019
Sunday 7 July 2019
the forced bi-ness
Ok, so like buses, no blog from me for months then two in two weeks..:) in fact, as long as i have something to write about i now fully intend to be more regular.
i am no writer though, neither do i want to be.....i just love writing from the heart, as i feel it, or the ideas come to me.
So my idea for this blog was to be 'secret'..a way of me communicating with Miss on wider subjects, for Her to read as and when (of even if) She wants to, without bombarding Her with emails. we all know the dangers of over communicating in life in general, and i am certainly not that person.
So, with that in mind, there will be no fan fare when i blog, its just there mainly for Miss to read, but as you are part of the journey too, then i am delighted you took the time to read my scribe.
This time, i just thought i would wax about my forced bi experiences.
Firstly, these were zero before i met Miss Suzanna. i have not even ever considered the thought of bisexual interaction before....no way siree..i do love the idea of filming with other males involved, body contact etc not a problem.....but sexual stuff.....never entered my little brain.
It was clear from the outset that to earn my collar, i would be required to prove myself to Miss by completing Her set tasks. i did try to wheedle out of Miss what these task would be, but She was better than that and remained silent..:)
Approximately halfway through my devotion and yearning to earn that collar, on September 7th 2018, i was required to attend to a double Mistress session as this was something else that was on the list of activities i was required to complete.
Double Mistress sessions was not a new concept for me, but this would be my first with my potential owner...if i passed of course.
i have reviewed the session previously, so i wont go there but towards the end i was bound to the cross very securely. Miss Marks and Miss Suzanna were looking very excited before Miss left the room, returning with another naked slave on a lead behind Her.
This was to be my first forced bi experience........and i had no idea!
Now let me context forced...yes it is/was, as it's not my choice; but is consensual, such is the trust, knowledge, understand my Mistress and i have, i consent to anything She wants....because i trust Her to push me, but not break me.
Anyway, earlier in the session Miss had already forced one orgasm from me (and ruined it by pouring it down my throat) so when the other slave took me in his mouth, i knew he would have a challenge. Not wanting to disappoint and fail, i focused on the two blonde Mistresses infront of me, rather than the man who was now sucking my cock for the very first time.
Focus as i might, Miss's slave could not get me hard...i was forced to wank myself and cum on his face.....Miss would decide later if my collar was still an option.
So my take on this is strangely although i had failed, i did not 'dislike' the situation, and would consent to, but not request (!) a forced bi situation again. Apparently i said this to Miss in Derby......She remember and would not wait too long to test me again with my cock in another mans mouth.
So, Derby. This was a huge moment for me, as it was the time i put my trust, whole heartily in to Miss, at the blink on an eye....or heart beat.
So my considered next forced bi situation was during the filming of "The milking of Our stable"
There was no interaction as such, as i was secured to the bed. But this was my first time i had tasted another mans spunk, but it was not one but two other male subs had been milked into that glass before i was forced to cum in chastity into the same glass and the whole mixture poured down my throat! A totally ruined orgasm for me!:)
i did hear Miss whispering to Miss Mark and Miss Inka prior to the scene, i could not hear what about though. But following their plotting Miss turned to me and said "flash, you just need to trust Me". That i did, and that i still do to this day.
Third time was the cuckold situation.
OK so there definitely was no interaction here and my sight and hearing were removed.
However i was again forced to taste and swallow another mans load, this time it was from Miss' husband following His love making with Miss...what an great honour this was.
Again, i knew nothing about it, nothing about the cuckold plan until She told me as i was bound, drugged and immobile, and She was awaiting Her lover.
After She had enjoyed Him, She fed me His cum from Her fingers, which was clearly entwined with Her very own most sacred and holy of fluids.
i love the photos Miss took after this, look carefully and there is still a little bit of Her lovers cum on the corner of my mouth..;)
The fourth time was very recent. W/we were on set shooting for Her store, and prior to one scene...She simply turned to me and said "mushroom is going to suck your cock on this one".
The feeling i had was simply "yes Miss" - again it was; unexpected, forced but consensual, surprising with my willingness to not disappoint. This time i was sucked to an erection, with mushroom leaving me hard for Miss to finish the orgasm extraction as She expertly does.
So there is still no way i would say to Miss i want to do bi sexual things in our next monthly session.
But, the great advantage of investing the time, money and effort into each other is that She knows me so well...my boundaries, hard limits, soft limits, places She has not taken me yet places She wants to take me too.
i have no doubt a 5th forced bi situation will happen......i know not when, where, with whom and how but it will definitely be forced, as it still ins't my choice, however it will be consensual as i trust Miss Suzanna 1000%.
thank you for reading..xxx
i am no writer though, neither do i want to be.....i just love writing from the heart, as i feel it, or the ideas come to me.
So my idea for this blog was to be 'secret'..a way of me communicating with Miss on wider subjects, for Her to read as and when (of even if) She wants to, without bombarding Her with emails. we all know the dangers of over communicating in life in general, and i am certainly not that person.
So, with that in mind, there will be no fan fare when i blog, its just there mainly for Miss to read, but as you are part of the journey too, then i am delighted you took the time to read my scribe.
This time, i just thought i would wax about my forced bi experiences.
Firstly, these were zero before i met Miss Suzanna. i have not even ever considered the thought of bisexual interaction before....no way siree..i do love the idea of filming with other males involved, body contact etc not a problem.....but sexual stuff.....never entered my little brain.
It was clear from the outset that to earn my collar, i would be required to prove myself to Miss by completing Her set tasks. i did try to wheedle out of Miss what these task would be, but She was better than that and remained silent..:)
Approximately halfway through my devotion and yearning to earn that collar, on September 7th 2018, i was required to attend to a double Mistress session as this was something else that was on the list of activities i was required to complete.
Double Mistress sessions was not a new concept for me, but this would be my first with my potential owner...if i passed of course.
i have reviewed the session previously, so i wont go there but towards the end i was bound to the cross very securely. Miss Marks and Miss Suzanna were looking very excited before Miss left the room, returning with another naked slave on a lead behind Her.
This was to be my first forced bi experience........and i had no idea!
Now let me context forced...yes it is/was, as it's not my choice; but is consensual, such is the trust, knowledge, understand my Mistress and i have, i consent to anything She wants....because i trust Her to push me, but not break me.
Anyway, earlier in the session Miss had already forced one orgasm from me (and ruined it by pouring it down my throat) so when the other slave took me in his mouth, i knew he would have a challenge. Not wanting to disappoint and fail, i focused on the two blonde Mistresses infront of me, rather than the man who was now sucking my cock for the very first time.
Focus as i might, Miss's slave could not get me hard...i was forced to wank myself and cum on his face.....Miss would decide later if my collar was still an option.
So my take on this is strangely although i had failed, i did not 'dislike' the situation, and would consent to, but not request (!) a forced bi situation again. Apparently i said this to Miss in Derby......She remember and would not wait too long to test me again with my cock in another mans mouth.
So, Derby. This was a huge moment for me, as it was the time i put my trust, whole heartily in to Miss, at the blink on an eye....or heart beat.
So my considered next forced bi situation was during the filming of "The milking of Our stable"
There was no interaction as such, as i was secured to the bed. But this was my first time i had tasted another mans spunk, but it was not one but two other male subs had been milked into that glass before i was forced to cum in chastity into the same glass and the whole mixture poured down my throat! A totally ruined orgasm for me!:)
i did hear Miss whispering to Miss Mark and Miss Inka prior to the scene, i could not hear what about though. But following their plotting Miss turned to me and said "flash, you just need to trust Me". That i did, and that i still do to this day.
Third time was the cuckold situation.
OK so there definitely was no interaction here and my sight and hearing were removed.
However i was again forced to taste and swallow another mans load, this time it was from Miss' husband following His love making with Miss...what an great honour this was.
Again, i knew nothing about it, nothing about the cuckold plan until She told me as i was bound, drugged and immobile, and She was awaiting Her lover.
After She had enjoyed Him, She fed me His cum from Her fingers, which was clearly entwined with Her very own most sacred and holy of fluids.
i love the photos Miss took after this, look carefully and there is still a little bit of Her lovers cum on the corner of my mouth..;)
The fourth time was very recent. W/we were on set shooting for Her store, and prior to one scene...She simply turned to me and said "mushroom is going to suck your cock on this one".
The feeling i had was simply "yes Miss" - again it was; unexpected, forced but consensual, surprising with my willingness to not disappoint. This time i was sucked to an erection, with mushroom leaving me hard for Miss to finish the orgasm extraction as She expertly does.
So there is still no way i would say to Miss i want to do bi sexual things in our next monthly session.
But, the great advantage of investing the time, money and effort into each other is that She knows me so well...my boundaries, hard limits, soft limits, places She has not taken me yet places She wants to take me too.
i have no doubt a 5th forced bi situation will happen......i know not when, where, with whom and how but it will definitely be forced, as it still ins't my choice, however it will be consensual as i trust Miss Suzanna 1000%.
thank you for reading..xxx
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