...just a feeling....

 and that is i am feeling very submissive at the moment.

i filmed - camera work - for Miss today and She was sparkling.....but not just that, im feeling so submissive to Her right now, i adore serving Her and providing support from my skill set if and when She needs it.

i am so proud to be owned by Her.

W/we have not sessioned for a little while so i am so pumped for the next one, but before that i get to film, as a submissive for Her at the Cottage for the first time in a long time - maybe that is driving my feeling of deep submission tonight........anyway...i just thought i would share....xxxx

13 faves - big and small

 

Of the 54 Headline fetish Miss list's i thought i'd list my fave 13....just in alphabetical order and i had to lose 6 from my first pass - which was bloody hard!!!

i would say there are 11 'staples' there and the other 2 could switch around each week..xx

anal/strap on

breath play

caning

CBT

cuckolding

edging

face sitting (clothed)

forced bi

Orgasm control/denial

sensory deprivation

spitting

tie and tease

watersports

Then there is the little stuff during a session which makes a big impact

CFNM and on my knees.

Mistress grabs on my collar or neck

deep heat in condom and forced erection

Kalis, (viagra) & sensually driven erection

poppers in breath play

Sexual/sensual stories in tie/tease

Branding my balls - every session if it was my choice!!!

Anal hook

Body closeness

Mistress kisses

holding balls in hand

Shine latex

Champagne to drink

Ball press

Miss Suzanna's A - Z: F for Forced Bi

Forced bi - and rather timely this, as the way Miss Suzanna is leading down this path has taken turns this year.

As a re-cap before the start of 2022, i had pretty much only received oral from Her slaves - with varying degrees of success.

Now, as we move into August the path is getting darker.

Earlier this year Miss encouraged me - gave me no option in reality - to enter another man for the first time. Carefully planned and expertly delivered, my first man fuck was also captured on camera for all to see.

i always thought the fuck would be the hardest and therefore last item i would be made to do...expect the unexpected here!

Next up for me was the sucking of a big and hard cock. Miss had made me suck a cock before, but very briefly, this time i would be sucking for longer and repeatedly.

On that very same day, the last of the big 4 items Miss Suzanna place a big tick next to it as She allowed a man to fuck me. my first feel of real cock in my hole as Miss, and Her friend watched my violation.

In one last humiliating act, Miss then branded my balls with my screams of pain arousing the guy who had just fucked me, so much so he emptied his balls on my face......thankfully i was not to swallow this time.

So with sucking and being sucked, fucking and being fucked the foundations of my forced bi journey is cemented.

Building on this now, Miss has ensured my cock has been sucked many times this year for Her pleasure and amusement.

This last filming day the bi filth fest continues, with Miss making me suck another slaves cock which end in us in a 69 position until i blew my load in his mouth, which he was then told to snowball back to me to swallow.

Where next on the journey i wonder....?

Well im quite pleased that i can become erect in another man’s mouth, go to orgasm if Miss desires that, and i certainly would like to experience this the other way round - are my skills good enough though...?

i regularly imagine sucking a man to erection, feeling it grow in my mouth before sucking him to the very of orgasm. As he does release into me i keep my mouth still my eyes fixed into Miss Suzanna’s as his cock pulsates and pumps his load into my throat. That little glint in Miss's eye as my mouth is full of spunk......."swallow it....."

i did blog at the very time the first forced bi soiree started, only to remove it a day later - im pleased to say i have been accepted into the second version of the forced bi day and will be very much looking forward to what Miss has instore for me then.

Miss Suzanna's A - Z: F for Face sitting

Face sitting (clothed) is next on the run down of Miss Suzanna's specialities and how they effect me as one of Her submissives.

Its fair to say up untill recently facesitting was not a big deal for me - yes i get the implications of it, but i enjoyed other fetishes more, so in sessions, face sitting was lower down.

Also, the is a very personal (to me) reason why i glossed over this activity.

i say WAS, as experiences continued to move along with Miss S, Her version of facing sitting has become a favourite for sure now!

The brath play is so powerful. This Woman, sat above me really does take my breath away...smotehring and cutting off my air. Even if i could open my mouth, or nostirls i will not breath 'through' Her...thats not right, i would rather pass out beneath Her than that. But Miss effectivly cuts off my air.

i recall a memorable part of one particular session. Miss had me all secure in cling film, She looked devine in Her PVC cat suit. Bound and secured and with my cock and balls exposed it was fair to say torment was on the cards. But Miss S gave me a nice heavy intox and to my surprise, frustration and submission then sat on my face. The poppers buzzing my head and Miss sta on my face was a delightfully deadly combo. Of course, at the other end was the pain - the pain of being forced on the edge over and over as my brain was taken away from me at the other. The best face sitting experience ever, for sure. Poppers beneath Her.....never to be forgotten.

In a recent session Miss sat on my face and whether intentional or She plain forgot She didnt move to allow me air. Being the respectful submissive i am, i have to wriggle my nose free to breath beneath Her, not through Her.

When Miss sits on me now it is quite the honour. Pefection, so near but so far and used in such a way that the control is all Hers, my submission is Hers and when and how heavy i need to breath, are all Hers.

If She chooses to add a layer of pain then more concentration is required - to not only breath when allowed, but not move in such away in which to disturb Her. 

Its not all about the closeness of lingerie smothing either, Miss has face sat me in jeans too - an altogether different vibe.

Yes there maybe a little bit of air around and an opportunity to sneak breaks, but the harsh unforgiving denim material brings a different mental state, but still one of submission, devotion and the willingness to be Her play thine.

one special week

This week has been very special for me.

One of the most intense session i have ever had just being one part of it. i am still floadting from that experience make no two ways about it.

But just, if not more importantly for me at this time, were the more 'insignificant' events of the week which have made a significant impact on me. i kind of feel like a giddy excitable, uncontrollable teenager....;)

This is down to one person, the understanding She has of me and the totally insane amount of respect i have for Her - i didnt even know it was possible to respect a human being so bloody much.

Yes i am submissive to Her, and always will be. She owns me and i am proudly collared by Her 

i intend to blog more, i need to update the world on my forced bi journey, to which now all of my virginities have been taken by Miss Suzanna, using real cocks and holes and leaving craving from more as the number of male mouths Miss forces me to orgamsm into continues to rise.

 i'll get to my take on Miss Suzanna's A-Z of fetishes and what they mean to me, as i really enjoy that part....probably too much to be honest and when the cock goes in hand, the writing is finished...:)

Miss Suzanna's A - Z: F for Forced Orgasm

Miss Suzanna's fetish list - F for Forced Orgasm

i am totally fascinated by the whole concept of this. It absolutely empowers the Ladies who take total control and changes the norms for the male orgasm.

Just the concept of having an orgasm forced on me is fascinating. The fact that is not my choice to orgasm how and when I would like to.

Clearly the male orgasm was 'designed' to do a job...in the cruel hands of Miss Suzanna that 'job' is far from being even the merest consideration.

When She decides that my orgasm is to be forced upon me i remain powerless to resist and knowing i, and my cock are just along for the ride and not knowing how or when it will end.

Miss has taken many orgasms from me in many (mainly) painful ways. From the moment She begins the arousal, and my cock is made to grow in Her hands there is no going back. i, and my cock are just puppets for Her to play with until the spunk is removed from my balls.

Whether i want to orgasm or not is not really my choice - i may try to resist cumming and try to control my cock, but in reality, this is fruitless as Miss will continue the milking process until She has removed what She wants.

Forced erection, continued erection is painful and frustration and leads to blue balls which being to ache to be emptied. This is a bitter sweet situation as 99% of the time the orgasm will be ruined in some way, totally removing the orgasmic sensation that i crave and leaving me frustrated, submissive and devoted to Miss Suzanna.

i recall a situation i found myself in which optimised this state. i was securely strapped to a whipping bench having just been pegged. Miss then grabbed my cock and began to make it grow. i was face down and blindfolded, unable to see, unable to move so all i could feel was my cock being made to get hard. Miss continued the cold forcing oof an erection, i was powerless to stop it.

i always have to beg for my release and as Miss continued to milk me like a cow i felt the need to beg. To my surprise there was no edging today, just straight to ejaculation. At that pivotal moment Miss stopped Her magical hand action and i came, ruining the moment. She then milked me more, ensuring all of my filth was out before walking slowly to the front of me and pouring the sperm She had caught in Her hand, down my throat.

Disgusting and humiliating, but by owning my orgasms, She owns me, my submission and devotion reinforced each and every time.