Orgasm controlled

so as i sit here day 6 of chastity, my mind switches to my last session of 2018 with Miss next week and thoughts on what She has in store for me.

She has mentioned sub state, which She well and truly put me in last time and it was super awesome so ill be intrigued by that!

Also what are Her plans for my orgasm, if any....? Pretty much everyone one this year has been ruined by Miss. Either by forcing it, making me eat it, post orgasm torture including ball punches and forcing a second without a break, or by edging me a painful amount of times before removing Her hand at the point of no turning back. All either painful or humiliating, or both.

So my thoughts are what will it be next week....?

Btw she even controls them remotely from distance in the same manner. They are well and truly owned by Miss Suzanna.

December domestic filming

So earlier on this year i was honoured enough for Miss Maxwell to ask me to film as a sub for Her in some domestic setting clips. That filming day was yesterday.

In a fun day of filming. W/we shot 3 clips and i filmed Miss in action with another sub (black sheep) in another 4. In between filming Miss allows a fairly relaxed atmosphere, but leaves you in no doubt of Her dominance with occasional reprimands such as ball squeezes throughout the day. Of course She is attended to as She requires with refreshments and assistance with menial tasks also.

So, more than 24 hours later and my - or more relevant - Miss Suzanna's balls are still aching. In the very first clip, She dished out some very painful ball busting and all whilst i was chastised. i can say no more until She chooses to release the clip, but i was proud to suffer for Her and capture that suffering on film.

Filming as a sub is totally different from a session - and i love both. With filming, you dont get the intensity of session play, but you do get to learn a little about Miss in the breaks, and clearly the pain is dished out as you would expect..;) i know not of what i am going to be required to film, again this matters not to me as i totally trust my Mistress - She knows me so well now and She is an exceptional reader of people.......do not underestimate this point....!!;)

my next meeting with Miss is as accompaniment with Her to Bitches Unleashed...something i am honoured to have been invited to do. i have been allowed to accompany Her to BU once before, and thoroughly enjoyed it....this time however, will be in different circumstances.....

The main one being, W/we now know each other a lot more due to my total devotion and servitude to Her throughout this year.

Secondly She owns me, there is no doubt about that any longer from my point of view and She is vocal about it to. As such i need to continue my learning at the event, i dont want to let Her down and i dont want to cramp Her style...its tough this devotion deal...;)

Also i will know a lot of the Mistresses there - Ladies who i admire and respect. i hope to have conversations with them but obviously my heart and soul will be with my Mistress, at Her feet or at Her service, whichever She chooses.

Thank You Miss Suzanna.....and just 1 reason why She is awesome

Just a quick blog to both thank and praise the wonderful Miss i am devoted too.

Firstly, i appreciate the help She allows me to give in order to make Her life better and/or easier. i am honoured and privileged to be allowed to carry out these duties for Her.

Secondly, at the start of our devotion Miss set some rules, no contract just rules and expectations. i have tried very hard to follow these, and largely i feel i have succeeded. It was a very demanding start to the devotion, probably as Miss got a grip of me and tested me, maybe we have settled into a more serene phase of the devotion now. For how long is Her call....you know that..;)

Anyway i digress. For the first time in our journey i felt the need to ask for deviation from the expectations. i pondered this decision very carefully. i did not want to upset or confuse our connection. i did ask and received a favourable response, but more importantly than the answer yes was Her unequivocal compassion and concern for me. She need not have worried....but She absolutely did and that was Her biggest driver...Miss Suzanna You are wonderful...xx

i cannot see me asking for deviation again, as i truly, truly love being devoted to MSM....xxx

Finally for now, i may do a 'whats it like to be slave flash' soon....from a submissive, devoted males point of view....well, at least mine anyway..;) x

An ode to Miss Suzanna

A little ditty in honour of my Mistress.....:)

Here i write about my favourite person,
Who, if She left my life, it would worsen.
A cruel, sadistic, tornentative Miss,
Devotion to Her is truly bliss.

One brief meeting in Manchester one day
Was all that it took for me to think “OK”
slave flash you need to get this deal booked,
From that day forward, i am truly hooked.

A journey was planned to earn a collar,
The tapestry of my life She will encolour.
i’m now totally addicted to Miss Suzanna
A talented Domina who plays the piana😁

Latex, denim, leather or lace,
Miss always has style, elegance and grace,
A regal Domina with class to spare,
Drives my desire to worship and care.

Long blonde hair and blood red lips
Legs of perfection and real nice….boobs😊
With a body to die for and a brain to suit
Beautiful face which makes the boys toot.

With a sadistic nature and razor sharp tongue,
Any slave cockiness doesn’t last long,
Beauty and brain’s She uses all day
Submission and servitude the only way.

With a love of torment, denial and tease,
Effortlessly making me eager to please,
Distance control or with Her in person,
Her knowledge and imagination, a bottomless caisson.

When there in person, She is at Her peak
By contrast to Miss, my resistance is weak
All sessions with Her are a true delight
my desire to submit, i just cannot fight.

With the ability to be cruel, harsh and kind,
She effortlessly twists the meek male mind
Normally hard but sometimes mild,
The beating of males, drives Her wild.

The use of the cane, the whip, or crop
Keeps me in check & Miss Suzanna on top,
With beatings inevitable to keep Her happy,
i take it for Her, so She is not crappy.

Hits to the balls and hits to the bum
Hits to the cock for an early cum,
Strikes with the crop and blows with the cane
There is no-one better at inflicting some pain.

Torture of balls, nipples and cock,
Edged to frustration, no watching the clock
Using Her knees, heels or kicks
It’s a joy to crumple at Her feet in bits.

Slapping, spitting, pegging, using a needle
Chastity, control, made to feel feeble,
No choice in my torment, its totally Her call
i have no fears here, She excels at them all.

As much as i adore always thinking of You,
i'm sure You have something kinky to do,
With that note i too must dash
Warmest regards, from Your slave flash.

Session 9 review

So it's session 10 with Miss Suzanna tomorrow....ive been 8 days in chasity and 8 days without release...thats 190 hours or 2.18% of 2018 (i wonder what %age of the year i have been in chastity in total...??).

Anyway i plan a blog about the moving and differing mindsets when in chasity - now its just an ache - like they are bruised - and im very aware, like they are swollen......im also very horny and frustrated, and i still have one more no cum worship to do tonight!

So, my first ever review of a session is up on Miss' website, and now here for you to read. Hopefully i'll do a review of each session going forward on this marvellous journey....enjoy:

i nervously waited in my car for my Mistress to summons me to this double session with Her and Her gorgeous blonde friend Miss Marks. What was instore for me, remained a mystery

Miss Suzanna Maxwell opened the entrance door shortly after i had knocked. As i entered i could not fail to see and admire Her in Her lovely black lingerie - heels, stockings suspenders, kickers and bra  - She knows lingerie is a big weakness of mine.

Miss lead the way up the stairs, giving me an enchanting view of Her perfect ass inches from my face as i followed Her in a trance up the stairs to my date with destiny.

Once in the dungeon, Miss Marks joined us, also in black lingerie - Miss Marks going for multi-strap suspenders to keep Her stockings up and a basque on top. i was in double blonde and black heaven.

After the brief formalities, Miss Suzanna told me they were leaving and i was to strip and await their return. i did this and assumed the greeting position that is required.

Not long passed before i heard the delightful sound of heels and the door opening. Miss Suzanna's perfect feet appeared in front of me and i greeted Her with kisses to each foot, before Miss Marks presented Her beautiful feet for the same worship.

"up on your feet arms out" Miss commanded. As i presented my wrists, the two Ladies cuffed me and clipped me to the suspension unit above. i was now naked, hung and at their mercy.

Miss Suzanna left the room and swiftly returned with a glass tumbler, at the same time as She began playing with my flaccid penis, She informed me i was going to cum in the cup and then drink it.

Now i had been in chastity for 9 days, and the thought of me swallowing my own heavy, 9 day old load resonated. However, with Miss's relentless action and the visions of blonde and black loveliness filling my eyes my thoughts drifted as my milking continued.

There was no choice for me here, i was going to be forced to cum then i was going to have to eat it. As Miss's rhythmic handiwork brought me inevitably closer i asked for permission to cum. It was the fastest i had ever been granted, Miss was clearly keen to see my humiliation!

As i started to ejaculate, Miss cruelly stopped Her wanking of me, ruining my orgasm to boot.....agony, but my pitiful thoughts on this lasted only as long as it took Miss hand returned to my cock to ensure She had fully emptied me.

She quickly presented the cum filled glass opened my mouth and poured that 9 days worth of cum into me-  "swallow it" She barked. Miss Marks's equally as skilled hand returned to my cock and She began some sensitive post orgasm wanking - for a second i thought i was to be forced to cum again, as i know that is in Miss' arsenal.  Thankfully Miss left my cock alone as both Mistress broke down into giggles and laughter at my humiliating start to the session, and clear grimace on my face.

Miss defined my harsh and ruined milking as pleasure: therefore following pleasure must come pain.

Still helplessly strung up, both Mistresses then began to flog me, taking in turns to create the sound on my back they so love. i can’t remember how many lashes i took before they switched implements to the crop, then finally to a whip. Miss pushed me yet again in Her whipping of me which i took for Her.

Following this, Miss turned Her attentions to my balls. She is a deadly accurate ball buster, and instructing me to turn round so i could not see Her coming and spread my legs. Her first kicks connected with my testicles from behind me and the pain shot into my stomach - cruelly made worst by me not being able to cradle them following the kick....!

Miss Marks was invited to kick me which She did with accuracy too then both of these stunning Women took turns to smash by poor, empty balls in a barrage of kicks. With my arms aloft i could not defend my assets from the exquisite pain even if i wanted too.

With my balls tenderised and both Mistresses happy i was let down and i was allowed to kiss the feet that had just hurt me, before i was cocooned in the inflatable slug!

This was another first for me and delivered so well by my Mistress. As the air filled the bag, i simply could not move. The rubber was all encapsulating, and with only small little holes to breath through i could not see a thing. Of course i was aware of the two blonde Mistresses that we’re circling me, but i couldn’t anticipate their next move, but simply lie there and accept my fate.

It was difficult to tell what was happening....i “think” my cock was exposed some how and that it was  toyed with, i was certainly aware of my Mistress’s face sitting - Her beautiful arse on my face, restricting the small amount of air i could breath, but not see Her was amazing.....and i was aware one of my tormentors sat on my waist....im not sure which one but they were tantalisingly close to me as i was all restricted.

Upon release from my cocoon, I was strapped to the bondage wheel...what a sight to see Miss Suzanna and Miss Marks in black lingerie strapping me in - my already weakened state was now fully exposed as i tried to take in as much of this visual treat as humanly possible....man it was heaven. Both Mistresses taunted me verbally, in sexy low tones before my Mistress exited the room leaving Miss Marks to continue my torment.

After a short time, my Mistress returned with a naked male slave collared, on a leash and on hes knees…i was resigned to my fate.

As Miss Marks provided some seductive words of encouragement, i could hear Miss Maxwell giving Her instructions and expectations to the slave – one of which was to swallow my load.

After giving Her final words, Miss lead the slave to my cock, and instructed him not to disappoint, whilst both Mistresses stepped back a little and watched as i endured this most humiliating act, solely in order to please Miss Suzanna.

Despite he’s best efforts the slave failed to get me hard…probable due to having the milking i received earlier coupled with the humiliation. Miss Suzanna, not renown for Her patience, released my right hand and instructed me to wank into the slaves open mouth. i commenced, at first choosing to continue to admire the view of these two Mistresses in front of me. As i became aroused i closed my eyes to focus my deviant thoughts and too deliver for my Mistress. Sinking into an immersive world i was soon releasing my second load of the afternoon into the mouth of the willing slave infront of me.

With the slave out of the way, the Mistresses released me for the final act of kissing Their shoes to end the session. This was my first forced bi experience, i did it only for my Mistress and in Her expert hands, maybe i will do it again in future. Maybe i was a little broken after it,  but as all the best people do, my Mistress has fixed me and I cannot wait to serve Her again in person  soon.

Regards

slave flash

edging

Miss Suzanna introduced me to the concept, the pain the pleasure of edging, that there is no doubt.

i had heard the term before, didnt know alot about it and certainly never experienced it, but it's just one of the items She has given me to which i am truly thankful.

On our very first session - before my total devotion and owned route - Miss ended the session by telling me She was going to edge me....i cannot recall the number but i'd guess it was 13 times...;) and it would have almost certainly ended ruined.

Miss is excellent at this, and just as it relies on me begging just at the right time for full effect, it also relies on Miss stopping or inflicting pain at the right time too.......and She excels at this...in fact i think W/we have only got it wrong one to date ...of course it was my fault and ending with several punches to the balls mid orgasm....that was painful i can tell you and it was caught on camera..;) - it has also given me an idea for a more extreme version of it....maybe that for another time..;)

Yes it would be easy for me to beg early and before the edge, but whats the point? i beg when i am at the edge, and it is that pain/pleasure moment. Its genuine and my fate is literally in the hand of my Mistress, to whom i trust totally.

Being repeatedly edged is painful obviously. It drains you, weakens you and commits you to a state of submissiveness rarely experienced. If you are totally restrained then that is another level and privilege again.

In O/our situation Miss controls me and takes control totally away from me. Its Her hand and my cock. i am truly honoured that it is this way round. If i were to edge myself, i would feel more in control, when Miss has my dicklet in Her hand then there is even less doubt who is in control. Even as i am begging and trying to hit the number i am given, it is Mistress's call if She wants to make me fail by ignoring me. That's Her prerogative.

one more sleep....

One more sleep until my frustrated and horny cock is out of its virtual chastity. For how long, and for what use i do not know, but one thing is for sure, Miss Suzanna will want me knelt naked infront of Her when i greet Her tomorrow.

i have no thoughts on what is in store for me tomorrow, i just know it will be pain for me and pleasure for Her, and my cock and balls will suffer their fair amount!

So, its 9 days since my last release.....well two releases actually as there were two on the same day. 1 was a forced and very ruined orgasm at the skill hands of Miss Suzanna the second, a few hours later was another forced orgasm, but this time She insisted i wanked myself in worship of Her stockings. Both times my disgusting mess was feed too me...yuk!

Since then i have been banned from touching. i have behaved, only touching my cock to pee, clean and shave, never so much a thought of touching in arousal.

It has been hard...Monday and today (Thursday) by far the hardest. i described Mondays pains in a previous blog, and today's are very similar, but today i have an almost irresistible urge to find a suitable image of Miss and totally misbehave.......but i will succeed and remain in my virtual chastity, or chastity of trust with no touching until i see my Mistress tomorrow.

The last 9 days have been difficult, but what it has done is ensure i think, dream and fantasise about my Mistress, which of course keeps me horny, submissive and subservient which of course is what She wants. She wants me to have Her always in my mind.....and She absolutely is.

This is also fraught with danger as the male mind is a little stupid not least when it's horny. So i have actively resisted needless random contact with Her, in order that i do not out stay my welcome and end up out of favour again.

So tomorrow is so finally nearly here, i just hope i perform as expected and do my Mistress proud...give Her some fun and laughter, amusement and pleasure at my predicaments and pain.

i may even consider are review of the session.....but of course only if Miss Suzanna Maxwell permits such scripture from me...xx