fetishes....what do they mean.....???

So ive had this idea in my head now, and indeed some blogs drafted, on what some of the various fetishes mean to me, from a submissives point of view.

i have just taken a list of the fetishes Miss Suzanna lists on Her site and i will just take time to run through them and see where it goes.

Now being a little organised, it will need to be alphabetical..:)

Most of these i have been fortunate to experience, maybe as part of the collaring regime or maybe sitting out side of it.

Adult baby play
Anal play and training / enema / strap on
Animal training (pony / puppy play)
Armpit worship
Bastinado
Bondage
Boot worship
Breath play
Caning and corporal punishment
CBT
Chastity training/ key holding
Confinement/Caging
Couples
Cross dressing
Cuckolding
Degradation
Dinner dates
Domination
Double Domme
Edging
Electro play
Face sitting (clothed)
Face slapping
Financial Domination
Flogging/whipping
Foot worship
Forced Bi
Hot wax play

Human Furniture
Human Ashtray
Humiliation (verbal / physical)
Medical play
Mummification
Needle play
Nipple torture
Orgasm control/denial
Phone domination
Post Orgasm Torture
Public humiliation
Role play
Sensory play/deprivation
Sensual Domination
Sissification
Skype domination
Small penis humiliation
Spanking
Spitting
Sploshing
Submissive assistance
Tease & denial
Tie & tease
Trampling
Urethral Sounding
Water sports


So quickly let me just make a comment on a couple of activities that are 'not for me', which is pretty much only Adultbaby.

So that means the first blog coming, is anal.....:)

taken a different way

The last few times Miss has pegged me has been on the more sensual side.....lay on my back, Miss over and on top of me, hands round my throat and staring deep into my eyes as She penetrates me.


The sensual and visual overload during the violation drives my submission, reinforces Her dominance over me and ensures i know my place beneath Her.

The most recent time Miss choose to sodomise me, She also chose a different way to method of doing so.

As i lay on my front. She firstly hogtied me, gagged and blind folded me before inserting a plug into my arse. When the time came to remove the plug, Miss also removed the hog tie, gag and blind fold, before driving Her cock inside of me.

Naked and face down on Her bed with my head in the pillows Miss fucked me hard and fast. No looking at Her pretty little face as She took me, just head buried in the pillows which muffled my gasps as Miss continued to nail me.

Short, fast and hard strokes Miss pumped in and out of me as i lay there with just my thoughts as She pound away behind me.

When She was satisfied, She withdrew....only to replace the cock that had just been inside me with a larger one..."On all fours" She commanded as She got back on the bed..."pick up the poppers and inhale..." as Her drugs entered my head She entered my arse for round two. Miss grabbed my hips and proceeded to take me doggy style....this time a slower pace but deep and relentless.

A pegging of a different technique, yielding the same result and ensuring my submission, devotion as She reinforced Her dominance.

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Her human receptacle

So i am sat here, grabbing some screen stills from a hot human ashtray clip i filmed with Miss recently, and it got me thinking about the substances She effortlessly forces me to ingest, without question, and for Her pleasure and amusement.

In this instance its not only the ash i have to eat but She really does exhale all of Her smoke directly into my mouth, even holding my nose shut to ensure that i consume the lot.

i am no longer a smoker....except when Miss chooses to use me as Her smoke and ash tray, to which i find myself unable to resist and honoured to assist.

During this clip Miss also departed Her spittle into my mouth - it is such an honour to receive this. Whether Miss spits with force and venom at my face, or slowly drizzles Her saliva into me, the liquid produced by my Mistress is always sacred and a pleasure to receive.

Previously, She has forced me to drink the spunk of other men.....and i feel sure that She has not finished with this humiliating and degrading of drinks just yet

She has also of course forced me to drink my own seamen - both in Her presence and remotely - which i had to film me doing so as evidence...

In Her latest creation Miss has me swallowing is a cocktail of my very own cum and Her champagne, all mixed together in a glass. Having milked me into the receptacle containing Her golden nectar, She handed me the glass so as i did the deed myself, and emptied the spunky champagne cocktail, into my own mouth and on to swallow it.

Talking of champagne, although always a little humiliating drink, it is always an honour to receive the golden product of Her heavenly body.

i am fortunate enough to have consumed this in many ways - both warm and cold - on film and off, from only Miss and mixed with other Mistress's nectar, in public, in private and in a group situation where everyone knew that my drink was Mistress's champagne, and ultimately from the source itself.

So in reality, all of the products She produces have now gone inside of me....and some products She doesn't produce..:)

Another ingestion was Viagra......just as She had me chastised in a Mikes Spikes.....ensuring my erection was sustained, even under the oppression of the spikes......and Miss didnt need to even touch me to inflict Her pain.

Such cruel, wicked humiliating ways to ensure i swallow whatever She desires me too.


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The day is definitely coming.....

i can feel it, i can sense it, i fantasise about it...the day is coming when i fully take another mans cock.

There is no doubt about it Miss Suzanna has me well and truly on the forced bi road. She put me on it for Her pleasure and is/has expertly manipulated and trained me to Her whim.

Over the journey of working for, and obtaining Her collar the bisexual path has been inter linked.

i have already swallowed the cum of three men - whether my future spunk swallowing activities are confined, or i am required to eat the spunk of whoever Miss Maxwell chooses me to, is quite simply the choice and decisions of my Owner.

The first time i swallowed male filth was all caught on camera. Miss had Her two Dominatrix friends, Miss Ruby and Mistress Inka both milk Their sub into a little glass jar. With the cum of two men extracted, all three Mistress's attention then turned to me, forcing me to ejaculate, whilst i was physically chastised into the same little jar. Miss then delighted in tipping the spunky mix down my throat. i had no choice but to swallow, which i did without question.

This followed me being made to cum on a sissy face, as part of a bukkake scene Miss wanted...again...i was futile against the will of Her wishes of that day and duty masturbated over him for Her.

The second and third times where Her Husbands own cum. Once warm and fed to me from Miss's fingers following my cuckolding experience, and once cold, fed to me off a spoon in a humiliating and degrading act of cuckolding.

i have also had my cock sucked three times by three different men, for Mistress amusement. The first was as i was securely bound to a wheel. Miss and Her friend Miss Ruby taunted and teased me as Their sub went down on me for the first time.

Second was again caught on camera. When Miss was informing me and Her other sub of the plan for the clip She simply told us both, that he was going to suck my cock. He did, and sucked me erect - both of us performed our forced bisexual duties without question for our Mistress. It was at this point i knew i would be made to deliver my load into another man sooner, rather than later.

This delivery happened just before Christmas as Miss coerced my cock into another mans mouth, and this time it was to completion.
i was before Miss, submissive and naked except for my collar and bound star shaped. Miss had just branded me, so my full balls were very sore.
She used Her mesmerising techniques to ensure i complied with Her wishes of that day, and force me into bi sexual activity once more.
Drugged, bound and teased She drove me into a super submissive state ensuring i offered no resistance as i felt my cock enter his warm willing mouth. Expertly he sucking me erect and then on to full orgasm, Miss graciously allowing me to cum in his mouth as my balls drained into him.

my Owner is in total control of me and it is simply a case of when not if, She chooses for me to receive a real cock for the first time.

Not only is it Her choice of when and where but which cock, if he is allowed to cum, if he is will it be down my throat? will i have to swallow it, how many days worth of spunk will be in the balls, will there just be one cock, or multiple, will i be blindfolded, will i be chastised as i give head, or a free man - all Her choices.

When it does happen i hope that Miss looks at me, with my lips around a nice erect cock and feels proud that i am Hers, proud that i am sucking cock for Her, proud that She can humiliate me in this way. i hope She watches as my first real cock twitches and pulsates in my mouth, knowing that it is now delivering the contents of two full balls of spunk to the back of my throat.

There is a lot that fascinates me about sucking a real cock.

Will i be able to control my gag reflex as he unloads inside me? and keep his cock in my lips? will i Miss let me see the first man to penetrate me? will i know the name of the fist guys spunk i swallowed directly? will i be required to swallow with is cock inside me? or will he pull out to let me swallow the spunk? how hot will it look as his cock head slides in and out of my lips? how hot will it look when the cock pulsates into me? how will he taste? how much cum will there be? will Miss milk me and feed this to me after making two lots of cum in me? could i swallow more loads? how about a glory hole?...the questions rage on.

So once i have been penetrated orally and swallowed more and more spunk it can only be a matter of time before Miss over sees and orchestrates removing my anal virginity and claiming it as another one of Her prize's.

i wonder how Miss will do this....will She want to stare deep into my eyes as it penetrates me? or will She want to watch the cock as it slides in and out of my hole? will She spitroast me?  Who will it be? Who will She choose to take me? Will he cum whilst inside me? Will Miss peg me afterwards? With a bigger cock? All of these questions, and the answers all lie with not me, but one fantastic Woman, my Owner Miss Suzanna Maxwell.

From a hard limit when i began devotion, Miss has skilfully and successfully manipulated and bent my will to Her desires, the desires to do whatever She wants with me......and i cannot resist.

Happy 2020

Happy New Year Miss, Happy New Year readers.....🎈🎉

2019 was an evolving year in many ways. Beginning with earning and being presented with my collar in January and the mind blowing ceremony that followed in March, to ending the year with a truly awesome filming day, being three of many highlights.

It was also the year of deeper submission, removal of boundaries and of consumption of both spunk and champagne.

From being allowed to watch Miss deliver, before drinking Her finest in January to actually drinking from the wonderful source later in the year was a progressive path.

Spunk swallowing was a different journey! From the first time consuming other men’s sperm in Jan to the honour of being fed Her husbands cum both warm and cold later in the year. Then from mid to back end of the year felt like each time i saw Miss, i left with a stomach full of my own seamen fully fed back to me after She milked me into a glass.

We filmed on 6 occasions (plus 1 for the English Mansion) netting 29 clips, with Miss claiming 8 ruined orgasms and pegging me three times.

We sessioned on 10 occasions so that was probably 10 more peggings, branded 3 times and with 22 orgasms taken from me and ruined in someway 😳😳

As well as the filming and sessions i had the honour of accompanying Miss both to the English Mansion and a flogging event in Birmingham. All that coupled with assistance at two full photo shoots equalled a rewarding year serving Miss Suzanna Maxwell.

2020 starts by looking forward to being able to accompany Miss once more to Pedestal in January, the first event accompanying as Her collared submissive.

i am not one for resolutions or to much reflection - but i do have a 5 page summary of 2019 drafted, i'm not sure if it will ever see the light of day though..;)

i wish you all - particularly Miss and Her pride - a happy, healthy and successful 2020

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Xmas session

So as we head in to December i head for the last session of the year with Miss next week, bringing back fond memories of last years Christmas session.

It was my first ever serving Miss in a domestic session, where She beat me, drugged me, nailed me and allowed me a non ruined orgasm for the fist time as a Christmas gift from Her.

Up until that point, and indeed every time since when Miss Suzanna has extracted my orgasm from me, She has ruined it in some way.

5 of my last 6 orgasms i have been made to lick back up, with Miss actually catching 3 of them and pouring the whole spunky mess back down my throat.

The 6th one, although perhaps not technically ruined Miss simply took it from me as i lay suspended, drugged with a re-breather mask on, helpless and speechless as i concentrated on breathing whilst She extracted my cum.

So full feeding my spunk back to me is Her current favourite way of ruination it seems, but over the last 22 months Miss has probably chosen abandonment more times than any other, as Her way of ruining me. This is normally preceded by numerous merciless edging which has me a trembling, frustrated mess, putty in Her hands. More often than not Miss abandons me at the crucial point of orgasm before, scooping my spunk up and forcing me to lick my mess from Her fingers.

Post orgasm torture has featured on Her array of deliciously cruel ruining techniques. So has forcing a second sample immediately after the first, continued milking, forced to cum while chastised, beating my balls as i cum - either by hand beating or kicking...many, many ways does Miss have of ensuring She extracts the sperm, without the enjoyment of an orgasm.

Heres hoping that this year Miss allows me just one more non-ruined orgasm..........i wont hold my breath...:) xx

the most elite champange

Champagne

Its fair to say i had not enjoyed too much champagne drinking prior to devotion and indeed until the start of 2019. Miss Suzanna also acknowledging early on in O/our journey that relieving Oneself in slave company is something to build up to.

To be fair, i was first exposed to Her nectar in July 18, duly saturated from the source as i lay blindfolded in a bath, prior to going for lunch. 

my second exposure, and my very first taste of champagne was in Her dungeon, whilst tied to a chair and i was allowed a few teasing sips during O/our session.

However it was a filming duty in early 2019 where the watersports levels began to be ramped up with a huge kick start in Derby. Whilst on set, and as cameraman, Miss presented me with a fresh cup of produce, and instructed me to drink it. This was infront of 7 or 8 other people. It was delightfully degrading. i of course sipped and enjoyed my drink as i filmed Her dominating Her filming slaves in the day.

Since that day i have taken Miss’s golden nectar several more times and in different ways and circumstances…..which all drive slightly different sentiments and receptors.

When it is taken cold – Maybe taken during session, or like at Derby whilst carrying out other activities for Miss it brings on a more prolonged period of humiliation. Sipping the golden nectar cold just reinforces my servitude to Her and my willingness to drink for Her. i have generally taken it like this when Miss has other activities to get on with, so She allows me to drink at my pace.....but it all needs to be consumed.

Taken warm – Obviously freshly delivered, the warm drink has a slightly different texture….and when Miss glares at me ensuring I drink it all adds to that degradation.

This is when Miss effectively forces me to consume Her nectar in Her timescale....which generally is very short. Gulping all of Her liquid down, nice and warm gives me a more degraded feel as Her beautiful eyes watch me drink Her.

  

In public - One of the ultimate humiliations for me is when i am allowed to drink Champagne in public, especially if its the only drink i am allowed and Miss is enjoying a more traditional drink.

i have had the honour of doing this which again ensured i feel submissive when in public to my Mistress. This could be taken to another level, if W/we were ever eating out and my glass was filled with Her golden liquid as Miss's was filled with real champagne.

From the source – at Oubliete but not really sure who i was drinking from as Miss had invited two of Her friends to use me as their toilet too. That day i drank 3 Mistress's champagne, as it was all mixed together and individually from the source...it was just an extremely humiliating experience, but one that has me craving to drink from the source again. 

Miss has threatened to do this, so I in no doubt it is in Her plans for the future and will be a proper honour to try and consume it all. i am imagining a relentless stream of Her hot liquid as i try to gulp it all inside of me.

Finally a true fantasy of mine would be to be Miss's exclusive toilet for the day, each and every time She wants to go She simply uses my throat as Her toilet, using me whenever She desires.

One fantasy I have is to drink all of Her water during a day – so each time She wants to go, I have to swallow it all and flush for Her.