What a day......

 .....working for my Mistress.

A last minute kinky change of plan left me with a few hours free today. i am well aware i am behind on editing for Miss, but just keeping my nose in front so as not to feel the full wrath...:)

my tasks were clear today and a 7am start ensured i could give Her the most time i had.

6 full hours in and it was time for a break - but what a moring - all caught up on MP4, WMV, and 720 converstions/encodes and uploads and 3 or 4 new edits to boot.

 i was floating in sub space!!!!!!

i meekly mentioned desiring a few minutes worship time but that was rebuffed until Sunday, so full production with no distractions it was then..:)

Its nearly 7pm as i write this now and im still going - im so proud to be working for Miss Maxwell, to be owned by Her and to provide that support when ever and however She desires.

its an amzaing feeling and one i am truly honoured and proud of.

i am also aware that it's not a given yet a privildge that could be revoked should She choose. my challenge is to remain a loyal submissive who does his best for his Mistress.....and that keeps me going.

x

a big week

 for me this week - 3 shoots and a session with 4 Women!!!! OMG

tomorrow

 i cannot wait to be knelt before my Mistress tomorrow. After a weeks holiday i am craving timeless Female beauty, amazing Female control, pain and torment.

i cannot describe how much i am missing Her cock inside and my balls, literally in Her hand as She controls and bends me to Her whim.

Just because i have been away doesn't mean my chastity was compromised, with my balls last emptied, by Mistress Courtney some 12 days ago. Come session time, my frustrated balls will be full of 13 days worth of filth for Miss to extract (or not!) and She sees fit. If Her decision is to remove it from me, i am sure it will be in a deliciously painful manner.....maybe fed back to me.

my last blog spoke of my desire to swallow more spunk, and to my surprise i didnt have to wait long.

That week, i was made to strip and to kneel before the cock of a slave who was receiving a medical treatment from two Nurses. Part of that treatment was to unblock his pipes and my mouth was chosen by the Nurses for this purpose.

Despite my best technique and his cock hardening in my mouth i was unable to make him spuff into my throat. Fear not, Nurse Courtney was on had to relieve the slave of his man juice and joyfully fed all of it to me. The slaves pipes were proven clear and i had my fix of warm spunk to drink.

my balls are aching now, yearning for Miss Maxwell's control.

Sunday Services

 So each Sunday is spent worshipping images and video of my Mistress together with memories of sessions and filming and fantasies of experiences or situations to be in. In fact the fantasies probaly get the bloody flowing faster and thicker that the images...:)

This week, i had the pleasure of filming with Her in an outdoor location - 3 clips, a smoking one, a ball busting and a pegging. 3 very different clips and feelings as a sub.

The smoking scene Miss's face was very close to mine in parts, when She blew Her used smoke into me She totally put me into sub space and my cock grew uncontrollably without touch.

i love Miss pegging me - when Her cock is inside of i know who controls me - this was the 'warm up' black one - a nice little pain as She entered me and i spuffed in my pants, building to taking assgasms over the bonnet of my own car.

The ball busting was amazing and im loving this continued painful journey.

131 kick Miss explained at the start - 'i'll never make that' i thought - especially as the first few put me to the ground easily.

i struggled on as Miss got going, kicking me hard in Her thigh high leather boots.

As we approached 3 figures Miss then 'put me in the zone' Up close She forced an erection with Her amazing hand and continued to kick me - in burst of ten. It was amazing!

With the cock hard it was out of the way and Miss could hit the bulls eye and pain spot no trouble. The pain was real but i started to embrace it, it was wonderful and i felt i could take more, more more........

Then i had to speak, and my trace, my sub space was gone and so was the pain tollerance as each kick had me yelping and recoiling...................amazing.

It brought back fond memories of the clip where She kicked me so hard my balls swoll up so much they looked like just one - i loved it. Fingers crossed that day and feeling can happen again.

OK, back to worship now, including fantasies of cleaning up and disposing of cold sex party condom spunk.....:)......i wonder how many there would be...all lined up with its own unquie story.........

And visuals of Chained and Drained. How bloody hot does Miss look!!! Classic LBD, amazing tights - she is all over me, looking down on me as She torments my cock and takes yet another orgasm from me. Finishing with great post orgasm tornture with that hard punch to my empty and aching balls.....amazing.

I cant wait to suck cock again!

 real cock that it....

Im so looking forward to the Bumming and Bi soiree where hopefully i get to taste cock again.

Miss teased me recently with the prospect of two or maybe three cocks coming - MmM spit roast anyone...??:)

Im pretty sure I know - and have taken one of the cocks, so lets see how the other one tastes and feels.

So as well as that tantalising prospect, there is the 'new to me' Lady in attendance too, who will hopefully penetrate me for Her first time.

Its going to be ssssoooooo much fun and hopefully a few loads to swallow too....:)

New Years resolution.....

 I must blog more....:)

I enjoy jotting down my thoughts giving wee glimpses into my thoughts on my submission to Miss S.

Im feeling one on milking cumming on - and how the whole concept fascinates me......:)

a tormented weekend indeed

So mid way though October and every one of my orgasms this month have been taken at the hands of my Mistress, and ruined naturally.

i yearn a nice climax right now and Miss Suzanna has be forefront of my thoughts all weekend. My cock is hard, my balls are blue in appreciation for Her.

Friday was a first for me, teased and torment by Miss, made to watch Her fuck Her female submissive then shove the pussy juice laden cock straight into my mouth - before fucking me with the same cock and dispatching me.....made to watch fine Lesbian Domination yet without release.

Session happy tonight..

 ...and I can be session happy in my own little part of the world here.

I have rarely written about sessions, at one point I wanted to, but I came to learn they are personal times and very special times.

But, todays with Miss Suzanna and Miss Anna was incredible - a pegging like no other and certainly a kicking like no other - both my balls and my hole are sore, in the best way

now time to relive it in a private way..;)

pegging

Pegging - my absolute favouite fetish with Miss Suzanna - a little bit painful, a little bit humiliating, and a fabulous show of dominance which totally reinforces my submission.

Miss Suzanna pegs Her subjects in three ways for me.

The passionate way - on top, often in sexy lingerie and up close an personal - the ultimate role reversal and a sexy shoe of power.

The predicament way - painful, brutal and often in uncompromising positions which just serve to present the hole for Miss to totally violate

assgasm way - it's great just being railled - no clue as to when it will stop of how many assgasms She will take - i have no choice but to cum when She fucks me like this and it is mega,

...just a feeling....

 and that is i am feeling very submissive at the moment.

i filmed - camera work - for Miss today and She was sparkling.....but not just that, im feeling so submissive to Her right now, i adore serving Her and providing support from my skill set if and when She needs it.

i am so proud to be owned by Her.

W/we have not sessioned for a little while so i am so pumped for the next one, but before that i get to film, as a submissive for Her at the Cottage for the first time in a long time - maybe that is driving my feeling of deep submission tonight........anyway...i just thought i would share....xxxx

13 faves - big and small

 

Of the 54 Headline fetish Miss list's i thought i'd list my fave 13....just in alphabetical order and i had to lose 6 from my first pass - which was bloody hard!!!

i would say there are 11 'staples' there and the other 2 could switch around each week..xx

anal/strap on

breath play

caning

CBT

cuckolding

edging

face sitting (clothed)

forced bi

Orgasm control/denial

sensory deprivation

spitting

tie and tease

watersports

Then there is the little stuff during a session which makes a big impact

CFNM and on my knees.

Mistress grabs on my collar or neck

deep heat in condom and forced erection

Kalis, (viagra) & sensually driven erection

poppers in breath play

Sexual/sensual stories in tie/tease

Branding my balls - every session if it was my choice!!!

Anal hook

Body closeness

Mistress kisses

holding balls in hand

Shine latex

Champagne to drink

Ball press

Miss Suzanna's A - Z: F for Forced Bi

Forced bi - and rather timely this, as the way Miss Suzanna is leading down this path has taken turns this year.

As a re-cap before the start of 2022, i had pretty much only received oral from Her slaves - with varying degrees of success.

Now, as we move into August the path is getting darker.

Earlier this year Miss encouraged me - gave me no option in reality - to enter another man for the first time. Carefully planned and expertly delivered, my first man fuck was also captured on camera for all to see.

i always thought the fuck would be the hardest and therefore last item i would be made to do...expect the unexpected here!

Next up for me was the sucking of a big and hard cock. Miss had made me suck a cock before, but very briefly, this time i would be sucking for longer and repeatedly.

On that very same day, the last of the big 4 items Miss Suzanna place a big tick next to it as She allowed a man to fuck me. my first feel of real cock in my hole as Miss, and Her friend watched my violation.

In one last humiliating act, Miss then branded my balls with my screams of pain arousing the guy who had just fucked me, so much so he emptied his balls on my face......thankfully i was not to swallow this time.

So with sucking and being sucked, fucking and being fucked the foundations of my forced bi journey is cemented.

Building on this now, Miss has ensured my cock has been sucked many times this year for Her pleasure and amusement.

This last filming day the bi filth fest continues, with Miss making me suck another slaves cock which end in us in a 69 position until i blew my load in his mouth, which he was then told to snowball back to me to swallow.

Where next on the journey i wonder....?

Well im quite pleased that i can become erect in another man’s mouth, go to orgasm if Miss desires that, and i certainly would like to experience this the other way round - are my skills good enough though...?

i regularly imagine sucking a man to erection, feeling it grow in my mouth before sucking him to the very of orgasm. As he does release into me i keep my mouth still my eyes fixed into Miss Suzanna’s as his cock pulsates and pumps his load into my throat. That little glint in Miss's eye as my mouth is full of spunk......."swallow it....."

i did blog at the very time the first forced bi soiree started, only to remove it a day later - im pleased to say i have been accepted into the second version of the forced bi day and will be very much looking forward to what Miss has instore for me then.

Miss Suzanna's A - Z: F for Face sitting

Face sitting (clothed) is next on the run down of Miss Suzanna's specialities and how they effect me as one of Her submissives.

Its fair to say up untill recently facesitting was not a big deal for me - yes i get the implications of it, but i enjoyed other fetishes more, so in sessions, face sitting was lower down.

Also, the is a very personal (to me) reason why i glossed over this activity.

i say WAS, as experiences continued to move along with Miss S, Her version of facing sitting has become a favourite for sure now!

The brath play is so powerful. This Woman, sat above me really does take my breath away...smotehring and cutting off my air. Even if i could open my mouth, or nostirls i will not breath 'through' Her...thats not right, i would rather pass out beneath Her than that. But Miss effectivly cuts off my air.

i recall a memorable part of one particular session. Miss had me all secure in cling film, She looked devine in Her PVC cat suit. Bound and secured and with my cock and balls exposed it was fair to say torment was on the cards. But Miss S gave me a nice heavy intox and to my surprise, frustration and submission then sat on my face. The poppers buzzing my head and Miss sta on my face was a delightfully deadly combo. Of course, at the other end was the pain - the pain of being forced on the edge over and over as my brain was taken away from me at the other. The best face sitting experience ever, for sure. Poppers beneath Her.....never to be forgotten.

In a recent session Miss sat on my face and whether intentional or She plain forgot She didnt move to allow me air. Being the respectful submissive i am, i have to wriggle my nose free to breath beneath Her, not through Her.

When Miss sits on me now it is quite the honour. Pefection, so near but so far and used in such a way that the control is all Hers, my submission is Hers and when and how heavy i need to breath, are all Hers.

If She chooses to add a layer of pain then more concentration is required - to not only breath when allowed, but not move in such away in which to disturb Her. 

Its not all about the closeness of lingerie smothing either, Miss has face sat me in jeans too - an altogether different vibe.

Yes there maybe a little bit of air around and an opportunity to sneak breaks, but the harsh unforgiving denim material brings a different mental state, but still one of submission, devotion and the willingness to be Her play thine.

one special week

This week has been very special for me.

One of the most intense session i have ever had just being one part of it. i am still floadting from that experience make no two ways about it.

But just, if not more importantly for me at this time, were the more 'insignificant' events of the week which have made a significant impact on me. i kind of feel like a giddy excitable, uncontrollable teenager....;)

This is down to one person, the understanding She has of me and the totally insane amount of respect i have for Her - i didnt even know it was possible to respect a human being so bloody much.

Yes i am submissive to Her, and always will be. She owns me and i am proudly collared by Her 

i intend to blog more, i need to update the world on my forced bi journey, to which now all of my virginities have been taken by Miss Suzanna, using real cocks and holes and leaving craving from more as the number of male mouths Miss forces me to orgamsm into continues to rise.

 i'll get to my take on Miss Suzanna's A-Z of fetishes and what they mean to me, as i really enjoy that part....probably too much to be honest and when the cock goes in hand, the writing is finished...:)

Miss Suzanna's A - Z: F for Forced Orgasm

Miss Suzanna's fetish list - F for Forced Orgasm

i am totally fascinated by the whole concept of this. It absolutely empowers the Ladies who take total control and changes the norms for the male orgasm.

Just the concept of having an orgasm forced on me is fascinating. The fact that is not my choice to orgasm how and when I would like to.

Clearly the male orgasm was 'designed' to do a job...in the cruel hands of Miss Suzanna that 'job' is far from being even the merest consideration.

When She decides that my orgasm is to be forced upon me i remain powerless to resist and knowing i, and my cock are just along for the ride and not knowing how or when it will end.

Miss has taken many orgasms from me in many (mainly) painful ways. From the moment She begins the arousal, and my cock is made to grow in Her hands there is no going back. i, and my cock are just puppets for Her to play with until the spunk is removed from my balls.

Whether i want to orgasm or not is not really my choice - i may try to resist cumming and try to control my cock, but in reality, this is fruitless as Miss will continue the milking process until She has removed what She wants.

Forced erection, continued erection is painful and frustration and leads to blue balls which being to ache to be emptied. This is a bitter sweet situation as 99% of the time the orgasm will be ruined in some way, totally removing the orgasmic sensation that i crave and leaving me frustrated, submissive and devoted to Miss Suzanna.

i recall a situation i found myself in which optimised this state. i was securely strapped to a whipping bench having just been pegged. Miss then grabbed my cock and began to make it grow. i was face down and blindfolded, unable to see, unable to move so all i could feel was my cock being made to get hard. Miss continued the cold forcing oof an erection, i was powerless to stop it.

i always have to beg for my release and as Miss continued to milk me like a cow i felt the need to beg. To my surprise there was no edging today, just straight to ejaculation. At that pivotal moment Miss stopped Her magical hand action and i came, ruining the moment. She then milked me more, ensuring all of my filth was out before walking slowly to the front of me and pouring the sperm She had caught in Her hand, down my throat.

Disgusting and humiliating, but by owning my orgasms, She owns me, my submission and devotion reinforced each and every time.