sorry about the lack of updates...i do need to try harder..;)
OK so i'm glad to know that Miss didnt keep me from orgasm from that day till this, in fact She allowed my release on day 13.
How She did it took me by complete surprise, and arguably provided me with my first public humiliation experience.
After treating Miss to a nice light lunch i was told i had to go to the toilet to release....and film it, so She could view it when i returned..as i walked to the toilet, hoping no-one else was in there i just felt small. i had to film it, i couldnt see my Mistress either in person or an image so i had to imagine, dream, reminisce....anything to drive that vision of beuaty that would drive my erection and ultimately release.....in a public toilet.
As i walked back from my deed feeling like the whole world knew what i had just done, Mistress simply asked for my phone so She could view it...........i felt small, humiliated, degraded but proud that i had done what my Mistress wanted, and pleased for Her that i excepted my training without expectation or question and with total trust She is my Mistress.
So, where am i with my training? Seven sessions in and i feel totally owned. i now just simply submit to Her. When i have the privileged of worshipping Miss in person, i know not of what i will be subjected to. Whats more, i dont care, im not worried about it as long i can worship Her, feel Her the pain She expertly deliveries and make Her happy then i am happy. i do know however that Miss's favourite is beating men for their pain and Her pleasure, so each session i fully expect (and have received) a harder beating than last time
Miss Suzanna can certainly deliver pain - Her whipping and caning skills are renown, and my levels are pathetically low.
Miss has taken up the challenge to train me, and each and every session i receive a beating - i mark easily which delights Her and i am always pushed to the edge of being broken, i force myself to take more and more for my Mistress.
Under Miss Suzanna's guidance, i have been subjected to many experiences - some new, some not, some off my fantasy list, some that push my limits - but all executed with skill, confidence, quality and class.
Long may this continue.
sf
