Cross dressing

Another fetish that is not to high on my fetish list....that doesnt mean i am not interested in parts of it.:)

i cant walk in heels and would look bloody ridiculous in a corset but i do find curiousity in being made to look like the Superior Sex and having make up applied by Miss.

Clothed Female, naked male and the humiliating situation of being made to sit quietly as Miss, up close and in my personal space, applies products of Her choosing to my face. Mascarer? blusher? foundation? eye shadow? eye liner? false lashes? and a thick coat of lip stick......but what colour..?

The state of not knowing what i will look like, what colours She has chosen but clearly i can feel the full face of make up.

Maybe after the make up session i am put in a bra with silicone boobs as Miss then leads me to Her bedroom once more so She can reassert my position by violating my tightest hole once more.

Pegged again by Miss, this time as She enters me, She has a prettier made up face to stare into as She drives Her cock deep into me....

Confinement and caging

Probably not a major part of O/our play but it certainly has its role as part of a session, 

Another fansaty of mine would however be to be bound, confined and/or caged as Miss dominates another male - or female - sight removed wishing it was me (or not!) wondering whats going to happen next, or how long the session and Domination would last. 

To listen in on the session, knowing full well i will recieve no attention and that Miss is having all the fun with someone else.....imagine being in the cage below where Miss is pegging Her sub right above me....and all i can do is listen to the action.

Or even to confine me without allowing any insight into Her next session.....confind downstairs as Miss dominates upstairs.....

Caning and corporal punishment

 this is not on my likes list but most definitley is on Miss Suzannas love list.

i really would love to be able to take a good caning for Her.....prove my worth, enjoy the sting of the cane and wear Her marks with pride.....but im a bit of a wimp here..:)

i recall Miss caning my cock once after extrating my seed, for failing to reach 13 edges...this was pain and dispite my wriggles and cries Miss insisted on dishing out the full 13 strokes to Her poor failed cock.

i do enjoy watching Miss beat other men, and women with Her cane. Hearing their screams as Miss continues their beating is such a horny sound...

if i am to be beaten, and i do like to try then it is best if i am fully restrained, with which ever part of my body Miss wants to beat pointing skyward and ready for Her lashes

Chasity and key holding

Miss has had me chasitised now since March 2018, generally only permitting one release per week, on a Sunday and has even denied this on occasions.

If these denials happen prior to a session, or meeting with Miss with Her balls full and heavy, really drives submission and sometimes desperation to release......but also fear and apprehension as i fully suspect that the increased volume of spunk will be fed right back to me.

If i recall correctly the longest period of time Miss has chasitsed me is 17 days.......with explosive results when Miss finally extracted the seed from me.

It is a wonderful, surreal, daunting and proud moment each time i physically hand the key to Miss, say prior to filming or prior to events. She simply takes them.....all three of them and my mind enters the unknown of when She will release me and what indeed i have to do to earn this.

Whenever the instruction comes "you will lock up after worship tonight" is followed and Her cock gets physcally locked away. This has been whilst i have been at work, at events with Her, and events without Her, but when that cage goes on there is a constant gripping reminder of who i belong to and its impossible to remove Her from my thoughts. There is something really magical about walking round in public with a my appendage locked and controlled from afar...sitting and talking to people totally unaware of my situation.

A fantasy of mine would include being denied for a week or two, then seeing Miss for a tease and denial session without release with Her forcing me to lock myself up and give Her the keys before She dimissed me. Returning four or five days later for yet more tease and denial with Her choice of when and how to release me from my desperate and denied state

Miss Suzanna's A - Z: C for CBT

i love CBT!

It definitley is in my top 5 of fetishes - the pain, the pleasure, the control required, the control given up......when Miss Suzanna is putting pain through Her cock and Her balls

Miss Suzanna has many ways of torturing Her cock and balls, all designed to provide pain and they all driven my submission and ensure i remain compliant.

From using simple but effective techinques such as using Her divine hands to squeezing and try to pop the testicles to slapping the cock once She has forced it hard, are capable of effortlessly bringing me to my knees.

Deep Heat applied to the cock, especially an engorged and exposed head with the foreskin fully rolled down, will have me crying out in pain. Minimal effort here by Miss as She massages the lotion into me, to bring a prolonged deep burning and painful situation.

Miss has plenty of impliments in which to reign the pain on male genitals. The brutal Kalis Teeth certainly bites the cock as Miss easily forces my erection. i have been in a simple little plasric ball crusher whereby Miss slowly and painfully turns the screws to try to squash Her balls flat.....whilst driving the cock hard....it would be excruciating if She ever removed my orgasm whilst Her balls were flat like this.....

The humbler....a cruel device to keep subs on their knees and a myriad more - sounds, crops, whips, an egg topper, Her list is endless, Her pain devine.

Post orgasm torture is another area of CBT Miss has subjected me to. The first time i recall was when She forced a second orgasm from me, with no stopping after the first one was taken - the roller coaster of emotions going from relieve the spunk has been removed to the pain of the senstive post cum, to the resignation of my fate as the hand keeps milking me and the inevitablity of another forced and ruined orgasm, to the relief when She finally lets Her cock go.

Nylons are abrasive, especially on the exposed cock head POT would be a tough one to take here.

More on the way Miss has brutally dished out Her POT when i get to that section..:)

Then kicking, kneeing and ball busting in general are all ares where Miss excels at - and i willingly present my balls for Her to bust.

Breath play

Something Miss has been pushing on with in recent months, and i love the journey that its taking.

There is something seriously hot when this dominant Lady plays with my breathing.

She has done this in many ways - facesitting, holding my throat, simply covering my mouth and nose with Her hands and on to various masks and hoods.

When that breath is taken away, or controlled like that the mind begins to concentrate on breathing, or not as the case could be, Miss is free to Her unique brand of torment on me.....whatever that maybe.

The masks with the bag on it is tough...hearing yourself breath and trying to maintain a rythmn as the pain commences is exlierating, if She chooses to drug me and introduce poppers then thats another level, as i float off into Her supersub space still concentraing on breathing as somewhere, something will be violating me or creating pain of some sort no doubt.

Breath play cements O/our trust in each other and is just another confirmation of my devotion, admiration and respect of Miss Suzanna as She controls the very basics of life.

Boot worship

i have a real weakness for thigh boots.....especially when worn over stockings.....its instant heart race and gets the blood flowing.

i adore that 'classic' Domme look as it radiates power and supremacy, with leather boots the top of tree here.

Outfit and scenario dependent all other boots are a win too and all worth of worship, when on Miss S’s heavenly legs.

Licking, kissing and cleaning boots – especially the aforementioned thigh high ones, can be hard work on the tongue…..but soooo worth it.

So yup, i’d include boot worship on the hot list.

Bondage

Ok is Suzanna Sunday here and Miss has denied my release for tonight, which is already driving my frustration.....so i thought i'd try to take my mind of my cock with some writing about fetishes....it has been a while..;)


Up next, bondage. Generally used by Miss as part of other forms of play - like restraining me naked and star shaped to Her bed my body and mind Hers to uses and abuse as She pleases - pain, pegging, breath play, tease and denial....endless options


Last time She restrained me She edged me over and over forbidding my release.

i did comment that that formed part of a real punishment for me - a prolonded and repeaded edging as i was bound would be painful, frustration, tiring....but thats for another day.

Bondage obviously is a whole world of fetish in itself and one in which i do enjoy - so many possibilitiesd; how about the thought of being bound and blind folded as Miss punishes and sessions with another sub, or bound to take Her pain, or Her plentiful champagne, CBT or corporal punishment - the options are endless, and unltimatley Hers to choose.

Armpit worship and Bastinado

OK two for one here - Armpit worship and Bastinado - two separate things...obvs..:)

i would worship any part of Miss Suzanna Maxwell's body She wanted me to and/or allowed, and i am fortunate enough to have worked hard enough to be able to worship Her amazing body....but Her armpits have so far eluded me.....xx

i cannot recall ever doing this in my kinky journey, but i'll never say never.

Canning of the feet is hard for me, its hard work. Miss has done this, maybe once...it hurt..:) i am sure i will experience it again sometime at Her expert hands.

Animal training (pony / puppy play)

Ok next up animal training....well probably something i'd ever 'request' i guess but i have been made to do this in a clip early 2019.

i pranced around as a horse and got beat for it.......in fact it's one of the quite rare times Miss has caned me.

Her two friends caned me....three times each iirc, and that was all fine and dandy.....then Miss caned me and bloody hell what a difference....much harder and of course, i wanted to / had to take it..:)

A fetish not really for me, but i would do if required and to please Herself..:)xx

anal play, enema and strap on

The way Miss Suzanna pegs me is nothing short of genious, always different, always creative and always to Her satisfaction.

From the first time She took me, bent over a bench and taken from behind to the time before lockdown when i was indeed locked down to Her bed.

my wrists shackled and a breath restricting hood placed on me, Miss prepared to take me as i concentrated on breathing.
The way Miss nailed me that day left me in no doubt who my owners is. Fast, hard and deep with a regular dose of drugs i had no choice but to embrace the role reversal, submit and take this fine display of Female domination i was being subjected to.

Each time that cock penetrates me it serves as a reminder of the power and control Miss Suzanna holds over me, and who i wantonly submit to. Any remains of masculinity are removed as Miss pushed Her cock into me.

This even more true when the bigger cocks are used, filling me and stretching me as Miss pegs me.

It is my ambition and goal to take bigger and fatter cocks for Miss. Before the lockdown i was well on with a training regime to stretch that hole for Her, and will certainly pick it back up again before my next visit to Her.

Another ambition is to be pegged multiple times using bigger and bigger cocks....with a break in between, maybe other activities, but i will know that sooner rather than later, violation again is inevitable.

Anal is one of Miss' favourite fetishes and She delivers it with astounding success.

fetishes....what do they mean.....???

So ive had this idea in my head now, and indeed some blogs drafted, on what some of the various fetishes mean to me, from a submissives point of view.

i have just taken a list of the fetishes Miss Suzanna lists on Her site and i will just take time to run through them and see where it goes.

Now being a little organised, it will need to be alphabetical..:)

Most of these i have been fortunate to experience, maybe as part of the collaring regime or maybe sitting out side of it.

Adult baby play
Anal play and training / enema / strap on
Animal training (pony / puppy play)
Armpit worship
Bastinado
Bondage
Boot worship
Breath play
Caning and corporal punishment
CBT
Chastity training/ key holding
Confinement/Caging
Couples
Cross dressing
Cuckolding
Degradation
Dinner dates
Domination
Double Domme
Edging
Electro play
Face sitting (clothed)
Face slapping
Financial Domination
Flogging/whipping
Foot worship
Forced Bi
Hot wax play

Human Furniture
Human Ashtray
Humiliation (verbal / physical)
Medical play
Mummification
Needle play
Nipple torture
Orgasm control/denial
Phone domination
Post Orgasm Torture
Public humiliation
Role play
Sensory play/deprivation
Sensual Domination
Sissification
Skype domination
Small penis humiliation
Spanking
Spitting
Sploshing
Submissive assistance
Tease & denial
Tie & tease
Trampling
Urethral Sounding
Water sports


So quickly let me just make a comment on a couple of activities that are 'not for me', which is pretty much only Adultbaby.

So that means the first blog coming, is anal.....:)

taken a different way

The last few times Miss has pegged me has been on the more sensual side.....lay on my back, Miss over and on top of me, hands round my throat and staring deep into my eyes as She penetrates me.


The sensual and visual overload during the violation drives my submission, reinforces Her dominance over me and ensures i know my place beneath Her.

The most recent time Miss choose to sodomise me, She also chose a different way to method of doing so.

As i lay on my front. She firstly hogtied me, gagged and blind folded me before inserting a plug into my arse. When the time came to remove the plug, Miss also removed the hog tie, gag and blind fold, before driving Her cock inside of me.

Naked and face down on Her bed with my head in the pillows Miss fucked me hard and fast. No looking at Her pretty little face as She took me, just head buried in the pillows which muffled my gasps as Miss continued to nail me.

Short, fast and hard strokes Miss pumped in and out of me as i lay there with just my thoughts as She pound away behind me.

When She was satisfied, She withdrew....only to replace the cock that had just been inside me with a larger one..."On all fours" She commanded as She got back on the bed..."pick up the poppers and inhale..." as Her drugs entered my head She entered my arse for round two. Miss grabbed my hips and proceeded to take me doggy style....this time a slower pace but deep and relentless.

A pegging of a different technique, yielding the same result and ensuring my submission, devotion as She reinforced Her dominance.

flash

Her human receptacle

So i am sat here, grabbing some screen stills from a hot human ashtray clip i filmed with Miss recently, and it got me thinking about the substances She effortlessly forces me to ingest, without question, and for Her pleasure and amusement.

In this instance its not only the ash i have to eat but She really does exhale all of Her smoke directly into my mouth, even holding my nose shut to ensure that i consume the lot.

i am no longer a smoker....except when Miss chooses to use me as Her smoke and ash tray, to which i find myself unable to resist and honoured to assist.

During this clip Miss also departed Her spittle into my mouth - it is such an honour to receive this. Whether Miss spits with force and venom at my face, or slowly drizzles Her saliva into me, the liquid produced by my Mistress is always sacred and a pleasure to receive.

Previously, She has forced me to drink the spunk of other men.....and i feel sure that She has not finished with this humiliating and degrading of drinks just yet

She has also of course forced me to drink my own seamen - both in Her presence and remotely - which i had to film me doing so as evidence...

In Her latest creation Miss has me swallowing is a cocktail of my very own cum and Her champagne, all mixed together in a glass. Having milked me into the receptacle containing Her golden nectar, She handed me the glass so as i did the deed myself, and emptied the spunky champagne cocktail, into my own mouth and on to swallow it.

Talking of champagne, although always a little humiliating drink, it is always an honour to receive the golden product of Her heavenly body.

i am fortunate enough to have consumed this in many ways - both warm and cold - on film and off, from only Miss and mixed with other Mistress's nectar, in public, in private and in a group situation where everyone knew that my drink was Mistress's champagne, and ultimately from the source itself.

So in reality, all of the products She produces have now gone inside of me....and some products She doesn't produce..:)

Another ingestion was Viagra......just as She had me chastised in a Mikes Spikes.....ensuring my erection was sustained, even under the oppression of the spikes......and Miss didnt need to even touch me to inflict Her pain.

Such cruel, wicked humiliating ways to ensure i swallow whatever She desires me too.


flash

The day is definitely coming.....

i can feel it, i can sense it, i fantasise about it...the day is coming when i fully take another mans cock.

There is no doubt about it Miss Suzanna has me well and truly on the forced bi road. She put me on it for Her pleasure and is/has expertly manipulated and trained me to Her whim.

Over the journey of working for, and obtaining Her collar the bisexual path has been inter linked.

i have already swallowed the cum of three men - whether my future spunk swallowing activities are confined, or i am required to eat the spunk of whoever Miss Maxwell chooses me to, is quite simply the choice and decisions of my Owner.

The first time i swallowed male filth was all caught on camera. Miss had Her two Dominatrix friends, Miss Ruby and Mistress Inka both milk Their sub into a little glass jar. With the cum of two men extracted, all three Mistress's attention then turned to me, forcing me to ejaculate, whilst i was physically chastised into the same little jar. Miss then delighted in tipping the spunky mix down my throat. i had no choice but to swallow, which i did without question.

This followed me being made to cum on a sissy face, as part of a bukkake scene Miss wanted...again...i was futile against the will of Her wishes of that day and duty masturbated over him for Her.

The second and third times where Her Husbands own cum. Once warm and fed to me from Miss's fingers following my cuckolding experience, and once cold, fed to me off a spoon in a humiliating and degrading act of cuckolding.

i have also had my cock sucked three times by three different men, for Mistress amusement. The first was as i was securely bound to a wheel. Miss and Her friend Miss Ruby taunted and teased me as Their sub went down on me for the first time.

Second was again caught on camera. When Miss was informing me and Her other sub of the plan for the clip She simply told us both, that he was going to suck my cock. He did, and sucked me erect - both of us performed our forced bisexual duties without question for our Mistress. It was at this point i knew i would be made to deliver my load into another man sooner, rather than later.

This delivery happened just before Christmas as Miss coerced my cock into another mans mouth, and this time it was to completion.
i was before Miss, submissive and naked except for my collar and bound star shaped. Miss had just branded me, so my full balls were very sore.
She used Her mesmerising techniques to ensure i complied with Her wishes of that day, and force me into bi sexual activity once more.
Drugged, bound and teased She drove me into a super submissive state ensuring i offered no resistance as i felt my cock enter his warm willing mouth. Expertly he sucking me erect and then on to full orgasm, Miss graciously allowing me to cum in his mouth as my balls drained into him.

my Owner is in total control of me and it is simply a case of when not if, She chooses for me to receive a real cock for the first time.

Not only is it Her choice of when and where but which cock, if he is allowed to cum, if he is will it be down my throat? will i have to swallow it, how many days worth of spunk will be in the balls, will there just be one cock, or multiple, will i be blindfolded, will i be chastised as i give head, or a free man - all Her choices.

When it does happen i hope that Miss looks at me, with my lips around a nice erect cock and feels proud that i am Hers, proud that i am sucking cock for Her, proud that She can humiliate me in this way. i hope She watches as my first real cock twitches and pulsates in my mouth, knowing that it is now delivering the contents of two full balls of spunk to the back of my throat.

There is a lot that fascinates me about sucking a real cock.

Will i be able to control my gag reflex as he unloads inside me? and keep his cock in my lips? will i Miss let me see the first man to penetrate me? will i know the name of the fist guys spunk i swallowed directly? will i be required to swallow with is cock inside me? or will he pull out to let me swallow the spunk? how hot will it look as his cock head slides in and out of my lips? how hot will it look when the cock pulsates into me? how will he taste? how much cum will there be? will Miss milk me and feed this to me after making two lots of cum in me? could i swallow more loads? how about a glory hole?...the questions rage on.

So once i have been penetrated orally and swallowed more and more spunk it can only be a matter of time before Miss over sees and orchestrates removing my anal virginity and claiming it as another one of Her prize's.

i wonder how Miss will do this....will She want to stare deep into my eyes as it penetrates me? or will She want to watch the cock as it slides in and out of my hole? will She spitroast me?  Who will it be? Who will She choose to take me? Will he cum whilst inside me? Will Miss peg me afterwards? With a bigger cock? All of these questions, and the answers all lie with not me, but one fantastic Woman, my Owner Miss Suzanna Maxwell.

From a hard limit when i began devotion, Miss has skilfully and successfully manipulated and bent my will to Her desires, the desires to do whatever She wants with me......and i cannot resist.